So its been a while since I last made a post.
I havent have much to say until now...
Well I have finally gotten a job. Its at wally world xD [walmart] and I start tomorrow at 8 AM. I only work in the mornings for the first week then I start working at 10 Pm to 7 AM after that. Im excited but nervous at the same time.
I will finally be able to buy my lolita outfits. x'3 YAY! I've already picked out my first 6 outfits haha xD. But besides the lolita outfits I have to save money to buy stuff for an apartment and such. I also, still have to get my permit -.- bleh. Im still not wanting that but I know I need it. v.v
And I also have to pay for my phone bill. sooooo thats gonna be tons of fun >.>
and I also have to leave room for the bills that I will have to be paying when I do get an apartment >.<"
and Car insurance and such. bleeeeeeeh. I just remember those bills. CRAAAAAAAP >.< nyaaa Dx
...*sigh* oh well. T.T
Also, I miss Nykki like crazy right now. I said something to him that I regret now.... I told him he lied... and now hes sad... and I think hes mad at me... Idk ... I wish he would talk to me but he doesnt want too.... *sigh* I ruin everything... He says I make him happy but How can I make him happy when he doesnt want to talk to me??
Im a horrible girlfriend... I know I am. I wish I could be a better one I just dont know how to be. =/
Obviously I cant be myself cause if I do... I wont make him happy... *sigh* I hate myself. It really sucks being the way I am... I wish I could change to where I could be perfect... So that he would be happy with me and I wouldnt make him sad.
I guess thats all though...
I guess Im going to go now.